50 things that make me BROKEN

1. when I wake up and realize that I missed time when I should actually pray

2. there are so many stuffs to do in one time, and no one could understand how hard it feels to me so they keep forcing

3. my best friend is not coming to school

4. my mark is under average

5. when my teacher forgets my name

6. when I got my weight increased

7. when my parents are mad at me

8. losing something really important when I really need it then find it when I almost forget it

9. when I'm apart to internet

10. when I'm apart to my blackberry

11. when I hear this song. it makes my tears can't stop falling (even till I write this sentence)

You said this could only get better.
There's no rush, 'cause we have each other.
You said this would last forever,
But now i doubt if i was your only lover.

Are we just lost in time?
I wonder if your love's the same.
'Cause I'm not over you

Baby, don't talk to me.
I'm trying to let go
Not loving you is harder then you know.
'Cause girl you're driving me so crazy

How can i miss you if you never would stay?
If you need time i guess I'll go away.
Inside me now there's only heartache and pain.
So where's the fire?
You've become the rain.

Are we just lost in time?
I wonder if your love's the same
'cause I'm not over you.

Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go
Not loving you is harder then you know,

And if you don't want me then
i guess I'll have to go..
Not loving you is harder then you know.

So I'll make the call,
and I'll leave today
I'm gonna miss you 'cause i love you baby
Yeah, I'll make the call
I'm leaving today

Leaving always drives me crazy. ]x2]
Baby, don't talk to me

I'm trying to let go.
Not loving you is harder
Then you know,

Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go (I'm trying to let go)
Not loving you is harder
Than you know,
('cause girl your driving me so crazy)

and if you don't want me then
i guess I'll hav'ta go! (I guess I'll hav'ta go)
not loving you is harder then you know
(girl your driving me so crazy)

Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go.
Not loving you is harder, then you know,
girl your driving me so crazy

12. when I'm really needing someone, but I can't even tell him

13. when I've already told him that I'm really needing him, he does nothing

14. when I keep believing that he WOULD do something to prove me that he does too, but nothing proves me anything

15. when I hold on, the one I hold on to lets me go

16. when I am sad, but I can't tell anyone

17. when I then tell the one I trust the most, he does nothing to make me smile

18. when I give too many clues but the one I give it to doesn't understand what I really mean

19. when I don't have other choices except staying silent

20. when I then have to fake smiles

21. when I say I'm okay while I know I'm not

22. when I then have to lie that nothing wrong is going on me

23. when it takes too long that I'm too missing

24. when I miss someone, but I'm a loser to tell

25. when I've already told him, and then realize that he never misses me

26. when I keep trying to make him at least understand, but he doesn't hear

27. when I still wait something that I know will never come

28. when I still dream my hopes after it's totally broken

29. when I still believe in something that doesn't give me proofs

30. when every time I smile, pain that's felt inside

30. when I write this entry

31. when I miss something that doesn't miss me back

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50. when I miss something that doesn't miss me back


that's why I just want you, once again, UNDERSTAND that missing someone without being missed back hurts me really bad